Office Supplies

Who doesn't love office supplies? Does the new package of Sharpies shown below do the same thing to you that it does to me? I want to rip it open and start doodling. 

Hopefully, my surgeon will appreciate the fact that I have managed to keep the entire package intact, and just for him. Because I am sorta jonesing for the ORANGE Sharpie right now!

I know they will have to draw on me quite a bit. I refuse to let it be in black Sharpies, I am really more or an orange and purple gal. I will present the Sharpies to the main surgeon prior to him doodling on me.

Here is a quick photo of the procedure they are going to do:

1. Remove breasts and nipples

2. Remove fat from tummy

3. Make a new belly button (!) and close me up like a window shade

4. Build new breasts utilizing the harvested tissue from my tummy

5. Reattach the blood vessels through a tiny hole in my sternum

I know, I know, it's probably more information than you wanted to know. But isn't technology amazing????? 

I, of course, want there to be plenty of fat for them to harvest, so I am eating ice cream every day. Tomorrow I may even have it for breakfast. 

This is, after all, a teaching hospital, so there will be medical students in and out of the OR.

VOTE: Funny or not?
I'd like to write on my boobs before surgery:
"Stop staring at my tits"

Bra Burning

I refuse to wear a bra this entire month of December. I figure I should let the girls have their freedom for this last few weeks.

And maybe I should burn my bras? I'm going to have a different size, so I get to buy all new lingerie. Yay. 

Bye Bye Boobies Maiden Voyage

Welcome! You found me! 

If you are here, either you know me, or you were looking for something weird (I don't want to know what you googled to get here!) Regardless, I'm glad you are here. 

Today is December 11. In 2-1/2 weeks, I am going to be having a double mastectomy, with a DIEP flap reconstruction. 

Why, you ask? I'm a 6 year breast cancer survivor. My mom was diagnosed at age 37. I was diagnosed at age 36. I opted for a lumpectomy and radiation. The cancer was aggressive and I ended up having chemo anyway. Had I known that (knowing what I know now), the question will always be "Did I make the right decision in not having a mastectomy?" 

Well, I could torture myself over that one, or I could just realize that at the time I feel I made the best choice for me. 

A little over a month ago, I found another lump on the same breast the cancer was on. Ready, set, go. That involved several doctors appointments, mammograms, ultrasounds, and searching on the internet. The mammo and ultrasound didn't show any sign of cancer. But my surgeon wants to take out the lump (another lumpectomy). 

My thoughts were, "Well, then why not just take them both off, and I don't have to deal with the anxiety anymore." 

I also should mention that I had another scare a few years ago where my world stopped for a few weeks and I got another biopsy on the other breast. It was benign. 

I just turned 42 on Tuesday (oh did you miss my birthday? I'll still accept late presents).  My mom was re-diagnosed in her early 40's with a recurrence of breast cancer. She passed away when she was 47. I was 25. 

I'm going for the gusto, as they say.

I've done my research. I've consulted doctors. I've cried with Tim. I've chatted with friends. I've spent a lot of time by myself and done some soul searching. 

I have decided it's a quality of life issue. So, December 29th. Happy New Year to me! 

And yes, the breast tissue will be sent off to pathology, because, as you know, it's not over til the pathology says "It's benign!" That should happen a few days after the surgery. 

This will be my side blog (in all my spare time), where you can keep up with me and find out more about my recovery, my fabulous new boobs, my flat tummy, my 6 weeks of no housework, etc. 

I'm excited, anxious, nervous, impatient, scared, happy, and so many other emotions. And lucky you. You get to hear about all of them as they come up. 

As you know, I just started www.ThereIsLifeAfterBreastCancer.com I have a 10 year marketing plan for the company, the series, etc. I want to make sure I can complete it!

I'm not done yet, so I'm doing what I can to make sure I will be here for a long, long time. 

If only I had taken better care of myself! HA! 

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Love, 

Hayley